| - Till I See You * U M U S T R E A D T H I S *
We are the Christians that follow Christ...
I was going through "the TEST" of the year or a life time past few months...
Past few months... it was really hard for me. As you guys know when we had G12, I had really dedicated leaders in my Gline and they really loved God. They fasted, prayed, summited, cried out, served, and followed after God's own heart. We had really good times and tough times... They were really supportive of me, and always trying to make me laugh and encouraging me when i am down and sad. They were there watching my back...
We had real love for each other... i thought.
They fell... into the lies of the enemy...
I poured out my heart to them. I prayed and fasted for them. I encouraged them. I did whatever I can to help them out. I was running to them always when they called for help. I gave my heart to them...
somewhere down the line, i noticed that i was pouring out myself to them... instead of God.
Somewhere down the line, I was becoming hopeless of them not being there. I was lost...
I was trying to run by myself with the remaining faithful leaders...
I had to go push my feelings deep down in my heart and try not to show my weakness because that was the time when i had to be super strong for the ministry. I was filled with sorrow... I wanted God to bring them all back but i didn't know how to ask. I stopped talking to God about my issues. It was only for business. I had to be strong... in my own ways.
God is always and forever faithful
He brought us two pastors... Pastor Brian and Pastor Lynn.
[i love you guys... o, u Pastors... the best Pastors...]
I had to adjust to them and soon enough, i felt really secure about the whole thing. After, I was in a mess. I was sick spiritually. I never told anyone... maybe i did. i can't remember... getting too old  I was really hurt that my leaders were deceived. I was heart broken. I was sick... like ER sick... i didn't tell anyone because i was afraid that i would hurt them... I lost touch with God. I didn't know how to talk to Him like i did before. I didn't know how to confess... i couldn't confess... because i felt like a FAILURE.
I was so sorry to God because I wasn't being the best i can to my leaders... I was so sorry... i couldn't talk to God.
One day... like normal day like today,
I grabbed my guitar... so rusty and dusty...
I grabbed it... and i sang my very first written song...
"Come to ME"
hear me when i cry...
hear my cry for YOUR people
heart me when i cry...
heart my cry for YOUR people
YOU will come... YOU'll come and heal us
come to me... come to me... come to me... my GOD
come to me... come to me... come to me... my GOD
hear ME when I cry...
hear MY cry for MY people
I love you, MY child...
I missed you so much
come to ME... come to ME... come to ME... MY child
come to ME... come ot ME... come to ME... MY child
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I will give you life,
I will give you MY strength
I love you MY child,
I love you so much
*I know for fact that this song isn't the billboard chart song... but i know that God loves this song. I sang this song to HIM and i just cried like a baby. I was in HIS arms... HE was holding me tight. HE was comforting me. HE knows my name, you know? HE knows my heart, too, you know? HE knew why i couldn't come to HIM.
HE understood me 
i told HIM everything, every little thing. I talked to GOD that day... yeah, the Almighty God that everyone talks about. I told HIM that i was so burdened by the hurt and how much i am hurting, how much i love HIM. how much HE means to me... You see, HE knows my name... HE calls me by my name all the time... except when HE calls me "daughter".
I know a lot of you struggling leaders out there, you guys are suffering... You are suffering because you are not laying your burdens down on HIS FEET. HE does not want you to carry those garbage. HE wants you to give them to HIM so HE can throw them away. HE is forever faithful. What makes you think that HE does not take care of HIS own children? Are they in sin? so WHAT?!!! HE is bigger than your sin HE is greater than your all of our strength put together!!!
I forever trust in GOD because HE knows what HE's doing.
I challenge you, Christians!!!
Become a real Christian!
Give your heart to HIM.
Let HIM take care of everything.
I challenge you to read the WORD!!!
He will give you a brand new life!
HE LOVES YOU all...  | 